This blog is gonna be written in English cause I'm allowed to use the internet only on their computer with their keyboard, i don't write in Russian with English letter. It seems creepy! So today you'll read new me, without my particular Russian language using. Not a big deal.
So i've changed the family. Actually its a long story. It turned out that my former host family changed me, having blaimed that i'm bad and so on. I got problems and probation period. My coordinator and host family, hating me, came to decision to put me in the family, where really old couple lives without any children. They live in the ass, in small city Granite Bay, which is close to Roseville. It means, i didn't switch school. I would like to switch it, but my organization doesn't want. Yeah, what i see outside is the river near house and the splendid smell of horse poops. It's extremely boring, and these old parents (70 years) don't allow me to use neither internet nor phone. But i kinda use it, they think i text friends in english. At least, im writing this blog in english.
They were told the exaggerated history by my ex-family, and they are supposed to change my awful behavior. It's shitty, everything turned against me. I just wanted to change family to be content and happy, to get right experience, but that bitches told some shit on me and im in problems. Anyway, this couple seems to be nice people, but it's sooo boring here and far from the civilization. There is a good thing, that this family is temporary until the organization finds new one.
I'm sorry for my english, i know, it's soo awful. For guy have been here for 6 month, i should write more correct and nice, but i'm trying, i don't care :)
I hope they don't stay behind me now, reading my "masterpiece". I can't tell something else about my situation. I'm here, in the middle of nowhere, complaining as always, but looking forward to get what i want.
There are so many exchange students, disappointed in their America. Everybody has expectations, it's sort of dreams, but close to reality. For example, i want to be strip dancer - that's dream! When i go to strip bar, i will dance on the strip with hot girl - that's expectation. And when you don't get them, you become unhappy and sad with yourself cause you're fucking loser, who can't make his small desires come true.
Just saying that. I just noticed. Longer i live here, more i get the idea, that expectations seize you and don't let get full experience out of the moments. You feel good, but that's not enough to be good for the expectation value. It's hard to change dreams, when you are not content with your life.
Hope you understand my horror, anyway, good practice for you, my lovely reader :)
So i've changed the family. Actually its a long story. It turned out that my former host family changed me, having blaimed that i'm bad and so on. I got problems and probation period. My coordinator and host family, hating me, came to decision to put me in the family, where really old couple lives without any children. They live in the ass, in small city Granite Bay, which is close to Roseville. It means, i didn't switch school. I would like to switch it, but my organization doesn't want. Yeah, what i see outside is the river near house and the splendid smell of horse poops. It's extremely boring, and these old parents (70 years) don't allow me to use neither internet nor phone. But i kinda use it, they think i text friends in english. At least, im writing this blog in english.
They were told the exaggerated history by my ex-family, and they are supposed to change my awful behavior. It's shitty, everything turned against me. I just wanted to change family to be content and happy, to get right experience, but that bitches told some shit on me and im in problems. Anyway, this couple seems to be nice people, but it's sooo boring here and far from the civilization. There is a good thing, that this family is temporary until the organization finds new one.
I'm sorry for my english, i know, it's soo awful. For guy have been here for 6 month, i should write more correct and nice, but i'm trying, i don't care :)
I hope they don't stay behind me now, reading my "masterpiece". I can't tell something else about my situation. I'm here, in the middle of nowhere, complaining as always, but looking forward to get what i want.
There are so many exchange students, disappointed in their America. Everybody has expectations, it's sort of dreams, but close to reality. For example, i want to be strip dancer - that's dream! When i go to strip bar, i will dance on the strip with hot girl - that's expectation. And when you don't get them, you become unhappy and sad with yourself cause you're fucking loser, who can't make his small desires come true.
Just saying that. I just noticed. Longer i live here, more i get the idea, that expectations seize you and don't let get full experience out of the moments. You feel good, but that's not enough to be good for the expectation value. It's hard to change dreams, when you are not content with your life.
Hope you understand my horror, anyway, good practice for you, my lovely reader :)
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